i really can't live like this anymore...
i am unhappy the way i am. i almost hate myself. in fact, i think i do.
i need to change.
all my life, ive been impaired by my body. ive never really had a chance to; participate in gym class back in high school, go to the beach without a shirt on, talk to a girl without feeling embarrassed and hopeless, be my true self without feeling self conscious and different.
when you're like this, life does just tend to pass you by indeed. i feel that i haven't even lived life yet, and 20 years have already passed.
these photos do not reflect who i truly am and i need to change this.